Fate and Luck

Christina Perri - Penguin

Can you find the time 
to let your lover love you 
He only wants to show you 
The things he wants to learn too 
The hardest parts you'll get through 
And in the end you'll have your best friend 

Love like this may come once 
Baby it's fate
Like a soul mate he's your penguin 
Baby it's fate Baby it's fate 
Not luck 

Can you find the time to let your lover hold you 
He needs somebody to hold to 
His love is strong and so true 
His arrows aiming for you 
And he's the one that you were born to love 

Love like this may come once 
Baby it's fate 
Like a soul mate he's your penguin 
Baby it's fate Baby it's fate 
Not luck 

Let go 
Let go 
of time for you 
and I 
Let go 
Let go 
of time for you 
and I 
Let go 
Let go 
of time for you 
and I 

Love like this is all I want 
Baby we're fate 
Love like this may come once 
Baby we're fate 
Like a soul mate your my penguin 
Baby we're fate Baby it's fate 
Not luck

Fate - "a predetermined course of events. It may be conceived as a predetermined future, whether in general or of an individual."

Luck - "merely a name we give to events after they occur which we find to be fortuitous and perhaps improbable."

heard that the song 'Penguin' by Christina Perri is good.

I just listened to it. altough it's not my type of song, but boy, did I fell in love with this one.

HIMYM quotes

ah, HIMYM. How I Met Your Mother. one of the most awesome TV shows ever. if you don't say so, you definitely haven't watched it. zaman nganggur pasca-UN, inilah salah satu dari sekian hal yang tetap menjagaku dari mati kebosanan di masa reses yang berlangsung selama sekitar 2 bulan. nonton TV show ini bisa bikin lupa waktu, lupa makan (ya bagus sih malah kurus), lupa bales sms, tapi jangan sampe lupa ibadah dong ya. 7 season pun aku jabanin selama itu bisa keeps me entertained. but that's the point. setelah menyelesaikan 7 season dan season ke-8 belum keluar, tinggallah aku dengan rasa penasaranku yang gampang sekali muncul, tentang kelanjutan cerita konyol tapi bermakna dari mereka; apa Robin benar-benar akan menikah sama Barney; gimana Ted akan bertemu the love of his life considering season ke-8 adalah season finale. uuuuuuuuu penasaraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan. denger-denger sih episode pertama bakal keluar akhir tahun ini, dan I can barely wait to see another awesomeness of the famous Barnabas Stinson :))

SEK, KOK JADI NGELANTUR SIH? kan ceritanya aku mau ngepost quotes-quotes dari TV show Amerika ini. yaudah deh cus.

Screw the plan. You can't design your life like a building. It doesn't work that way. You just have to live it and it will design itself. Listen to what the world is telling you to do and take the leap. --Lily Aldrin

I always look drop dead, stone-cool amazing. --Barney Stinson

..okay, that wasn't exactly a quote. but you know Barney. so yeah.

You can always find problems with any decision but you can't let that stop you. --Ted Mosby

Because a lie is a great story that someone ruined with the truth. --Barney Stinson

..again, Barney's. I just can't help it................

When I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story! --Barney Stinson

It's gonna be LEGEND- wait for it.. -DARY! --Barney Stinson

See, this is the problem with guys, you don’t know how to deal with heartbreak. --Robin Scherbatsky

I don't love her, okay? I just miss her when she's not around, think about her all the time and imagine us running towards each other in slow motion and I'm wearing a brown suede vest. BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE HER STUPID BOYFRIEND! --Barney Stinson

Sometimes, our best decision in life are the ones that don't make sense at all. --Ted Mosby

Usually in life, when you make a stupid decision, you just have to live with it. --Lily Aldrin

Considered this a while ago.

"Now I know why God didn't let there be time machines. Because if they were exist, people would all go back to the good ol' memories and wouldn't want to be sobered back to real life; that is in fact, not as good as they wanted it to be, and escaping to the 'yesterday's seems better and way easier to accept."

So I found this on 9gag.

and I was like,...................

Lama? Bukan Berarti Dibuang.

semua pasti punya yang namanya "teman lama".

bukan berarti dia "lama" dan eventually akan dibuang karena terlupakan. tapi "lama" yang, bagaikan barang lama yang tersembunyi di suatu tempat, saat kita menemukannya lagi tanpa sengaja, akan ada perasaan hangat yang menyenangkan di hati.

artinya, dia sebenarnya selalu ada 'disana' bagi kita, walaupun kita tidak mengetahuinya.

artinya, bisa dipastikan bibir kita akan melengkung membentuk senyum indah saat teringat kembali akan kenangan-kenangan lama yang pernah kita alami dengan mereka, saat kita menemukan mereka.


doh, jadi melow gini; gara-gara keinget temen SMP nih. apalagi sama makhluk satu ini: Rima Afifah Putri.

gimana enggak. dari kelas 6 SD, kami udah berbagi tempat duduk di kelas, walaupun nggak setiap hari. di kelas 7 SMP, ketemu lagi dan again, duduk bareng. kelas 8, masih satu kelas, walaupun aku nggak lagi berbagi meja dengan dia. kelas 9, back to nature, kembali ke teman-teman kelas 7 dan kembali ketemu Rima.

bisa dibilang dia salah satu sahabat terbaikku, call me cliche; but it's true. dia salah seorang dari sedikit manusia yang aku beri kepercayaan penuh atas cerita-cerita pribadiku, keluh-kesahku yang selama ini aku rasakan. kalau aku nggak pernah kenal dia, aku mungkin sudah bertransformasi menjadi seorang cewek biadab dan berfikiran dangkal.

dan di SMA kami kepisah, you have no idea seberapa sedihnya aku. kayaknya udah sebulan-an lebih apa ya nggak ketemu dia. boro-boro ketemu dia, teman SMP yang satu sekolah lagi di SMA kayak si Bocil (Nita Annafia) aja udah jarang. huffft, udah deh, kalau ngomong soal sedih pasti nggak ada habisnya, makanya aku jarang bermenye-ria. sekarang mau share foto aja ah:

jadi ini ceritanya mau pasang ekspresi ala the Overly Attached Girlfriend, namun gagal

ini juga niatnya mau berpose ala anak ekciz masa lalu, namun tetap gagal

this! wajah alim yang sangat cocok untuk kami berdua O:) lol

di ruang kelas 97 SMPN 8 Yk saat buka bersama angkatan 012.

saat peringatan hari ulang tahun Jogjakarta tahun 2011.

ganti baju setelah gerah make baju adat terus.

kenapa Rima mukanya sok alim gini.

background tanda tangan anak sekelas yang maksud sebenarnya untuk background foto buku tahunan, yang gagal pula.

iseng nyobain efek-efek di kamera tablet PC-nya Rima.

foto ini kalau nggak salah diambil waktu sudah selesai UN dan bisa seenak udel untuk masuk-keluar sekolah. hiks, really miss that moment! :(

and the last.. foto keluarga 97 lengkap dengan bu Sri Subarsidah sebagai wali kelas :) rocking Cherrybelle's pose!! \m/

"bergegaslah kawan, sambut masa depan. tetap berpegang tangan, saling berpelukan. berikan senyuman, sebuah perpisahan, kenanglah sahabat.. kita untuk selamanya." :)

Overrated Twitter is Overrated.

I feel like spilling my guts about the new addiction of people all around the world.

yep, it's twitter.

sebenarnya, aku sudah lama banget punya unek-unek tentang social network yang satu ini. hmm.. bahas dari mana ya?

oke. pertama, sadarkah kalian kalau Indonesia bisa dibilang salah satu dari beberapa negara teraktif (a.k.a. hobi 'berkicau') di jejaring sosial? coba bandingkan. account orang luar negeri tweets-nya baru mencapai - 20000, kita? yang 70000 aja ada.
bukan apa-apa, aku pun dengan perasaan menyesal juga mengakui kalau sejauh ini aku sudah ngetweet sebanyak 23517 tweets (last time I checked, of course the number's still increasing.). call me overreacting, but I feel like a social network talkative bitch. begitu sadar tau-tau sudah sebegitu aja ngetweetnya. twitter really caught my attention. which brings us to the second topic.

like I said before, twitter caught- not only me, but also people all over the world's- attention. bangun tidur, cek twitter. mandi, cek twitter. bahkan ada yang lupa mandi atau buang hajat hanya karena masih pegang hp sambil jalan ke kamar mandi. heck, there's even people who check their twitter while shitting.
why so obsessed? pertanyaan yang pengen banget aku lontarkan ke diriku sendiri dan juga manusia-manusia lain yang ikut terjerat candu twitter. kalau jawabanku sih.. mungkin:

1. twitter itu bisa dibilang paling simple kalau dibandingkan dengan social network yang lain. mau curcol, tinggal ketik, send tweet. mau ngomong sama orang lain: mention, send tweet. mau ngikut obrolan orang lain, tinggal reply to. beda dengan Facebook yang masih harus masuk ke profil orangnya, udah gitu sekarang sudah nggak ada fitur wall-to-wall. pokoknya serba ribet.
2. seperti yang kita semua tau, hampir nggak ada kenalan kita yang nggak punya account di twitter. jadi kalau misal pulsa habis atau under any other specific circumstances, tinggal omongin di twitter lewat fitur DM, rampung deh.
3. yang ini sepertinya dirasakan beberapa remaja labil semacam aku. twitter itu ajang yang paling asik buat stalking alias mengawasi seseorang tanpa orang itu tau sedang diawasi. hehe. makanya kalau punya twitter ndak usah buat koar-koar segala macem yang nggak begitu penting buat dikoar-koarkan deh, atau masalah pribadi nggak usah selalu diumbar juga kali, pamali ah. eh ups. *tutup mulut ala Kenan* which brings us to the main topic.

aku tau ini hak masing-masing orang, terserah dia mau ngetweet dan membicarakan hal apa di twitter. aku juga kadang masih melakukan hal ini kok. yaitu update setiap saat. nahlo, udah kayak iklan deodoran. believe it or not, ada lho yang dari detik dia membuka mata di pagi hari, sudah update. ada pula yang setiap pagi rajin menyapa twitter world dengan sapaan biasa atau dibarengi quote-quote gitu. kalau aku sih males ye, kurang kerjaan kesannya. saya lebih memilih memejamkan mata lagi setelah membuka mata, eh ups *tutup mulut ala Kenan* lalu ada pula yang update setiap pekerjaan yang sedang dia lakukan. misal: 'selamat pagi!' 15 minutes ago. 'mandi' 14 minutes ago. 'dingin banget airnya.' 11 minutes ago. 'makan dulu' 3 minutes ago. what the hell?! kenapa nggak sekalian update 'nafas' 2 minutes ago, 'kentut' 1 minutes ago, atau malah 'melangkahkan kaki kanan' a few seconds ago. I mean, come oooooonnnn.

sebenarnya msih banyak rants saya yang lain soal tetek-bengek social network satu ini, tapi pasti udah banyak deh yang kupingnya panas waktu baca tulisan saya di atas, eh ups *tutup mulut ala Kenan untuk yang kesekian kalinya* HAHAHAHAHA >:D

toodles! xx

September 7th

hey there. so much has changed since that day. the day that I knew exactly would change my whole life completely.

I still can't believe the things that happened that day. if I could, I would forget it, forget what happened that day, clearing it from my mind. I thought I've succeeded. but I didn't. the thoughts about what happened that day keep nagging in the back of my mind, begging to be acknowledged, to be reminisced, but I couldn't handle it, I still can't.

like I said before, so much has changed. time flies by. I am now a senior high school student. I'm wondering what would you say if you knew that I was accepted in the best school in town. when I got my national exams results, I couldn't help but thinking about the what ifs. what if you were there, feeling the same warmth of happiness when you heard that I got the not-so-bad results. what if I told you that I would enroll in that kind of school. what would you say, what would be your reaction. would you doubt me that I could survive? or would you give it all up to me? would you respect my choice? would you give me your wise opinions like you used to do before? I don't know the answers of all the questions above. one thing I know is, I'm 100% sure, if you saw my exams results, your reaction would be: smiling your usual warm smile (my favorite smile), patting my head proudly, and saying those words about how much you were proud of me. and you would tell all your friends, like you did whenever I won or achieved something.

then what you would say about my daily life. I am now went home at almost night time. I barely had time to spend with mummy and the other. I went home exhausted, almost always in a bad mood, not wanting to do anything but sleep. I rarely made convos with mummy. even if we did, we would just end up in a fight and me being the one blamed. I am tired and sick of being blamed of something I didn't even do. I am tired of not being understood, no one understands me. to be understood is all I'm asking. I'm still adjusting with my new life and I'm pretty sure I deserve to be treated better. yes I'm whining, I know that.  that's why I'm missing you now.

I know you would treat me better if you were here. you would give me advices I would be holding onto, but sadly you didn't. even if the time has passed and I should've been getting over it, I can't. I miss you. I miss waking you up in the morning, whining a little when I was running late. I miss sitting in the same car with you, your old car, the familiar sight that always reminds me of you, but now the old thing's replaced. I know exactly the way you adjust the rear mirror, the way you turn up the radio, listening to boring news. and you would be annoyed if you found a mistake in the DJ's words, commenting their punctuation and such. I miss having you to teach me how to ride a bike. when I was younger, you liked to comb my hair. I didn't like it, but I love your expression everytime you were done combing my hair, like you had hopes for me to be a beautiful woman one day. what would you say now that my hair is longer than the last time you saw me? what would you say now that I've grown up from your little kid into a teenager? would you see the changes in me? ever since you're gone, I always tried to be mature, more and more and way more mature than before. I rarely cried over you. I always tried to be strong, because bawling my eyes out everytime my friends talk about their d's proudly, is not exactly funny. I know that I'm different with the others, I have a different story. but I won't let that change who I am now, I won't be a sad girl walking around solo, doesn't have any friends by her side. someone I'm not.

because you are one of many reasons why I'm surviving.

because even if you're gone, I still love you with my whole heart.

because my prayers for you never stopped.

because you are one of the few people I love, more than I love myself.

because I live for you, for you and mummy's smiles.

happy (supposed to be) your b-day, daddy. please rest in peace, and watch me turning into someone you'd be so proud of.